A Dream Revived …
a timeline resurrected …
Many of us have stories where Divine grace guided us in ways beyond our comprehension and the more we can align with those subtle, and not so subtle, nudges the deeper our trust that the magic and the miracles are unfolding even when we don’t see them yet.
The change in my pace and daily rhythm is unfolding a new form of inner certainty in the revival of a dream for the croft that I once released myself from the attachment to. I needed to follow Spirit more closely without blocking the journey with my expectations. I have mentioned this without telling the story, which I feel compelled now to share.
In November 2019 I was strongly guided to hand in a 3 month notice where I worked.
This was such a palpable push as if spirit holding a hand to my back with an audible whisper in my ear, there was no way I could ignore it.
It continued through a four hour management meeting with my boss, we had so much to review and talk about there wasn’t a gap in our schedules for me to say anything. The following morning spirit woke me up, insistently telling me to email her. When I was finally happy with my resignation email and sent it I noticed the time was 11:11 - confirming and still my most profound experience of such numbers.
Though the drop in income concerned me a little I had some savings, income from Airbnb and shamanic work, I had lived off less and knew how to adapt. However my phase 1 Processwork psychotherapy exams were looming, studying and travelling to London from the Highlands used a considerable amount of my income.
My original plan was to establish the croft as a centre, study for my exams and train as a walk leader so I could take people out into the wilderness for shamanic nature connection and vision quests.
And so I started gathering resources.
A month after I left work all that changed with the pandemic restrictions. It meant no more AirBnB income, but also no more travel to London - everything went online. I took and passed my exams with several retakes, studying psychotherapy at a time when structures changed so much was intense. I found myself working a lot with my inner teenager who felt trapped by parental restrictions. Oh the wisdom of Divine Timing !
After some soul searching I decided to finish my Processwork studies and focus on my shamanic work. Though I had never seen beyond taking the Phase 1 exams, it still took time to accept. During this time I discovered and started training in a form of quantum light healing technology, Divine Healing Master Key, then later Lightbody Integration, Pellowah and other similar energy medicines with various teachers - I found that this transformed me as well as my shamanic practice.
I never cease to be amazed at how much information and memory our cells contain, though some may block us they are portals to the Divine - the intersection between our personal fields and the quantum fields.
Through this I started to understand more about myself as a soul, the congruency of my journey and my purpose. Synergising Shamanism with quantum light technologies is like weaving encoded star and earth medicines, which is what I was already doing with Sacred Earth Essences, only now I understood the metaphysical structures better and so more depth and layers were, and still are, constantly being revealed within all ares of my life.
As I couldn’t register any walks for the leader training I started a foraging group along with croft activities that complied with therapeutic outdoor activities, when restrictions allowed.
Later as restrictions eased I went on a survival training course, simply because it was the closest thing to bushcraft I could find nearby, which I enjoyed far more than I thought I would.
I was not only deeply welcomed by the land there, we have done much work together, but was invited back to run foraging courses - which I still do each autumn focusing mainly on mushrooms.
And the lands were calling … a need to travel … answering the call to serve Gaia. Which I did and have written much about, though there is still more …
When we follow the call of Spirit through our Hearts without attachment to outcome the confirmation of what has transpired in retrospect is a wonderful gift of living in linear time, as well as a spirit led spiritual training.
When I landed back on here on the Croft in late March I had no agenda other than to refit my camper van - and I didn’t even know how that was going to happen! And now it seems the timeline of that original dream has been revived and revised, along with the gifts of a very different spiritual journey to the one I had envisioned all those years ago.
with much love
from my Heart to yours
Tania Aurora White Crow