I’ve been experiencing a new level of multidimensional awareness recently that though has been integrating itself over the past months, has become really apparent over the past few weeks. I refer to this shifting of the energies in the post Beyond Beyond as a Centifruge effect, that enables becoming more responsive without the hindrance of old paradigm believes.

A few years ago I realised that if I was part of a younger generation I might have been diagnosed with Attention Deficit Disorder when I was younger, I’m really not sure if I qualify for the Hyperactivity part and I’m not that worried about the details - though both my children were, in very different ways, usually in response to certain foods or additives.

But I digress …

I feel Multi-Dimensional Awareness (MDA) is a much better more accurate descriptor, for I have always been travelling through many realms and worlds, and so I will continue to use that terminology.

I was the dreamer who stared out of windows, got lost in thought and books, didn’t pay attention in class, yet still passed all the tests and exams … because I could hyper-focus and still can … I would go into the library to read more books, because the dumbed down version we were taught in school didn’t make sense to me. While my parents and teachers would say ‘could do better’, for they saw that the dreamer was letting down the student, rather than I needed to learn to integrate both and not commit to one.

I was burnt out by academia after finishing my undergraduate degree, to the point where I went so completely blank in one exam I couldn’t write a thing - this dramatically reduced my overall mark, which was still quite respectable. So I travelled India, studying holistic massage on my return - I instinctively knew I needed to get out of my head and into my body - and out of the city, so I moved more rurally as soon as I was able, where I could heal the impact all this had on my physical body.

So I am both dreamer and laser … which means I am balancing opposites that creates harmony and true stability.

Personally if someone claims to be something, I’m more curious about where they are not that - and that includes when I hear myself making a similar statement - Lol ! We need both balance and unbalance to create harmony. We live in a dualistic world of polarities - and where we disclaim one half of that polarity within ourselves it will show up elsewhere in our world as a call to bring it into harmony, through the alchemy of integration.

And so, I’ve been aware lately that I am distracted and unable to focus in the way I have become used to - and what I mean by that is the whole quality of being distracted, unable to focus, being able to focus and so on - is different. I am impatient in conversations, which breaks many socially acceptable norms including those of the spiritual community … which has got me really curious.

Lack of attention doesn’t mean lack of presence … attention to what? Detail or expansiveness ? Presence is the ability to hold both …

… attention is simply where our awareness is within that field of presence. I can be present, attentive, not focused on you - yet very aware of you … because the focus of my awareness maybe elsewhere, like on the peripherals of our energy fields. This is not rudeness, this is a different experience of the world - and therefore way of responding.

Buddhism and mindfulness has been the foundation of my spiritual practice. The years of paying attention to my breath and learning not to be distracted by arising thoughts means that my awareness has expanded. It’s an amazing thing to know that attentiveness to the breath means that you develop a 360 degree awareness of what is going on around you, and it expands more and more, as your ability to be with your breath and in your heart does.

To start with my focus would be solely on the breath so I could sit with the distractions of my mind as they arose - and all the shit that underlies those distractions - which is what we refer to as shadow or inner work … and with doing that work I have been able to bring that MDA into my body.

I often talk about how learning to be like a snake, to tune in as if through my skin to the vibrations and frequencies around me …

… drawing my awareness away from my head into my body to use my felt senses … and it becomes second nature. And so getting passed being distracted means a whole new world opens up … one that embodies and embraces MDA anchoring it into the body so that the true exploration can begin!

The reason those of us with this multi-dimensional experience of the world, however it is labelled, are known to interrupt conversations is because we’ve already received the information in many forms through the visual, felt and other senses … we already know what you’re going to say and are both excited and bored by the pace of your revelation …

… this is not rudeness - it is Multi-Dimensional Awareness - we’ve already intersected that thought before you can find the words for it.

And it’s not to say the art of conversation isn’t needed, it is, but like any art something contemporary comes in and shakes up the art world for a while, until that worlds perspective expands enough to include it.

There is an honesty in MDA. And honesty is something we all claim to require more of and yet are triggered when we meet it where it breaks down our preconceived ideas of how our world should be ordered.

Through my years of Buddhist practice I tended not to interrupt and be a good listener, tracking key points of what was being said and responding appropriately. I am generally perceived to be quiet, grounded, calm, stable … and even when I completed the healing of ‘finding my voice’ a few year ago and I could just open my mouth and the words would flow out - I would still prefer to be quiet and observe - I often found that someone else would bring into the conversation what was coming up for me, and so would only speak when that wasn’t happening …

Not any more … not all the time … this is who I am some of the time and if this who you expect me to be all of the time …

… then those preconceived perceptions will get shaken up - the formula is changing, it is melting and becoming fluid …

MDA is the breaking of the old, established and accepted, including spiritual, truths and ways of being. It is more than removing the masks. It is opening up to a vastness and pulling down multi-coloured ribbons of consciousness and streams os multi-dimensional, multiple realm information to weave with. There is more information coming and more to manage so this a new level of expansiveness of our mental and brain capacity. The ‘scatteredness’ is different - it’s not purposeless or procrastination, it’s simply that there is a broader range of information to move through - we’re moving through it rather than it’s moving through us.

This vastness is new.

Before we were climbing up the ladder of ourselves so to speak, and on reaching the top everything is opening up, the vista is expansive, light and blinding, dazzling … like you’re just about to find your vision and all you can see is sky …

Our brains are opening up to this new information field, all the while maintaining it’s current functioning … and integrating the two

We are smashing through paradigms that haven’t even been formed yet - and that’s the point.

That’s the speed we are processing at. We don’t need to formulate - we just need to know, to feel, how to be responsive.

Though when others are still in the formulaic layers it can be frustrating for both sides. It doesn’t mean they don’t get the information but it’s from within the structure, the paradigm of themselves - Before opening up to the vistas of Limitless potential.

So much of the ascension process has been about more of embodiment, in effect a descension and not unlike what I have spoken about with my experience of integrating a busy mind with my Buddhist practice.

Now is the time of the Higher mind, a new level of perceptual awareness.

And yet here I am with this energy emerging in a new way which is distracting ….

And this is what I am experiencing in the moment and I am seeing such changes within myself and others close to me -

… a different expression of the same essence of self, and becoming truer to self because of it.

with much Love,
from my Heart to yours,

Tania Aurora White Crow

Multi-Dimensional Awareness aka ADD/ADHD