Discerning what is Supportive
On my path I was never interested in ‘who I was’ beyond knowing myself, that is how my unique essence was expressed through my human-ness.
Even as I shifted from a Buddhist path into a shamanic one my only interest was about deepening my spiritual understanding of the Earth and my connection to her. Though I’d known many who claimed to be re-incarnations of various well-known people, I took it all with a pinch of salt. Gradually though my understanding of this shifted and took on some form that resonated for me that has largely come through my guidance rather than what others say, claim and proclaim. And you will see this woven through my writing.
When one reader told me ‘who I was’ ( and I hadn’t even asked) or at least a template of consciousness that my soul carries … it came with a message from my guides saying ‘we’ve been trying to tell her for years!’ And when I track back … indeed they had, but it had never been on my radar so the hints and clues went over the top of my head. And I consider this a blessing.
It was interesting in the same way a medical diagnosis is.
That is it helps to make sense and provide a context for my experiences and maybe took centre stage for a while … but then it becomes limiting. After all this is something that I was and it is only one aspect of me and though maybe foundational, even directional - this is not who I am becoming. We are responsible for the return of purity to the templates of consciousness that we carry … as well as others … and that’s about it. For we change. We may be demoted, promoted, take on new roles, tasks and missions. Complete some, hand others over and try something new … so everything’s in flux all the time - especially now during these important transitional times of balancing and harmonising the karma … especially for those stepping into the roles of holding the frequency for, and responsibility of, the foundational creation of the new paradigm.
For we move in synarchy, not hierarchy.
I’m not meaning to imply that discovery of one’s soul aspects earlier on your path isn’t beneficial, simply that it wasn’t right for my path - which is very much of the Earth. So to have known any earlier would have been too much of a distraction for me and for the work that I do - for to not be influenced or intimidated by others remembrances is crucial. As I say it was a blessing not knowing, while being supportive at times now knowing … my years of Buddhist practice and psychology training have enabled me to find balance.
My reason for sharing this is because I recently worked with a client who’s story may be beneficial for those of you experiencing the remembering aspect of awakening far more abruptly than I did. Remember though, however you experience this that at a soul level you agreed to it and it will be testing your integrity, discernment and humility. That’s not to say you can’t be excited … I mean we are conditioned to believe that we’re a powerless, indistinct part of the human machine and then BOOM !!! Wtf !!! We all get destabilised to some extent.
But finding experienced, authentic, grounded support and guidance through this terrain can make all the difference. In the situation with my client she had worked with a practitioner who was very supportive and wanted to help her, but it seems that they weren’t experienced enough to do so, even though they were clearly gifted.
My guides have made it very clear that what happened was unconscious and there was no malicious intent … but in the attempt to support my client make sense of her remembrances created a whole new timeline just for them … an ‘imported timeline’ as her guides called it. There had been an attempt to weave some sort of cohesion between her memory threads, where there was never meant to be any. And parts of her soul essence had been petrified into metal there, others hypnotised by these memories and so in stasis - reminding me of Thich Nhat Hahns quote “Wisdom is a living stream not an icon to be preserved in a museum”.
We undid and unravelled that work and reinstated the flow of her essence.
And this is an important part of being a practitioner who is client centred, but not client led.
I always follow my guidance even when it doesn’t seem to align with what the client has brought to the session. Because I know that between my spirit teams and my clients spirit teams that whatever is for the highest and best good of the client will be worked on. Which will in some way relate to what their query is - for it wouldn’t be their query otherwise - and this is how this work, works.
What I am trying to express here is the importance of finding support from someone with well grounded experience and the maturity of an elder. Which may or may not relate to their chronological age or how long they’ve been practicing their spiritual craft.
And this is where your own discernment comes into play, following your intuition and your responsibility for yourself not to be pulled into the glamour of this work.
With my first shamanic teacher I had such a strong intuitive hit when I first saw her photo I knew she was the one for me - I still asked others about her and though not everyone was complimentary ( I soon discovered about some interpersonal issues between her and another practitioner), I understood enough to follow my first intuitive response and never regretted it.
Finding the right guides on the path is part of the path. And even the ones who take you on a tangent are the right ones to bring you an experience that you require.
with much Love
from my Heart to yours,
Tania Aurora White Crow