Becoming Elder

In recent weeks I have been working with the dark goddess, the Dark Mother. Familiar with many of her aspects, in my previous work, as the Morrigan, the Cailleach, Lilith, and so on -

though she may be dark, fierce, uncompromising, she is always luminous and compassionate - not sentimental.

This time the work is different, I felt her collapsing into me, from the deepest, depths of the belly of Earth, to the expansiveness of the darkest void that contains all, the spaces between the stars, the primordial womb, the place of creation - our origins.

She is fierce, strongly boundaried - for she contains the fragility of new life, allowing new beginnings to take root, she is their protector and guardian.

The synchronicity of this transition and initiation into Eldership in the weeks preceding the recent birth of my first grandchild ( a girl) is no coincidence.

I’d been receiving guidance for a few days to call in my council, then asked to start from the beginnings.

I’d been receiving guidance for a few days to call in my council, then asked to start from the beginnings. Fifteen beings arrived, some had no form they were colourful, geometric patterns of consciousness. As fifteen isn’t a number that I have worked with in this context before, I asked why and was told to come back later for answers …

In the shamanic tradition I formally trained in, we work with an inner spirit council of nine beings, each representing an archetypal essence.

My council had arrived through the inner initiations I received before then, my subsequent training was confirming, giving the framework to work with them more deeply, cohesively, comprehensively.

Revisting my council I was shown in this new formation a shift in the masculine and feminine energies and roles, the interconnected relationship with the numbers and patterns and that there wasn’t really a change in my inner council, rather a new inter-dimensional awareness.

My warrior is huge, muscular and fast, a hunter-gatherer - she has never worn much more than buckskin undergarments before ! Now stepping into the leadership role, she showed herself as the Norse winter goddess and giantess Skadi -

fully in her power, wild, justice loving, fiercely present.

My previous council leader a Native American Chief, now as Skywalker ceremonially dressed, dances the Grouse Dance of the Sacred Spiral of birth and rebirth … here is the masculine embodying his intuition and following his flow intune with the infinite in feminine form. For a true union requires wholeness, roles need to break down and be relinquished, so as to embrace anothers qualities, which is never outside of us after all.

On the journey to Eldership after uniting the masculine and feminine principles within ourselves, a Divine Child is created. I have been shown that it is this child that holds the key to Eldership.

My council showed me 3 interlocking circles, similar to a triquetra, each circle has 7 points - 3 x 7 is 21 - yet 6 of those points are where the circles overlap and connect - and so there are only 15 points in total.

These 6 intersecting points represent different aspects of the same energetic consciousness. My guides kept asking me to go deeper and through these portals were showing me a level of interconnectedness - which though I’ve comprehended before it was as if from a distance, more of a dreamlike experience that I could refer back to -

here the deepest level of unseen consciousness became manifest, it was as if I could touch it, I was in it, part of it. I was shown the different levels, aspects, a deep, rich multidimensional interconnectedness of All.

In my work with the elemental beings, when I draw down a spiritual consciousness into our co-creations - they feel just outside the boundaries of consensus reality, palpable and hauntingly close. This time I became them, communed with them in a new deeper way - as one of them, as pure consciousness. In a way that remains part of my reality.

One beautiful illustration of this experience are the matriarchal elephant beings, whose elders can find the ancient wells when all seems lost in a drought.

As they pace the land, they anchor in light to the planetary grids and so are intimately connected to Mother Earth and Gaias consciousness.

Gaia connects them to the Turtles on whom, in some traditions, SkyWoman founded Earth. Through these oceanic connections they commune with Whales - the ancient record keepers. These are not linear relationships, they work with the tiny elementals and Forestry consciousness created by the trees …

and of course Ganesh himself, Lord of Beginnings, remover of obstacles … then beyond with the pink, white, gold eternally emanating spirals of Love Elohim herself …

These connections are both huge, exponentially expansive, limitless and tiny, condensed microscopic, beneath the subatomic - fractals of the macrocosm and microcosm eternally reflecting each other.

We contain them all, for we are not separate … and those 15 fractals of my council, are simply parts of the whole - merging them is Eldership

with much Love,
from my Heart to yours,

Tania Aurora White Crow

11th - 18th October 2022